I'm posting this from my phone so its not going to be as in depth as I'd like it to be.
A few years ago I dated this girl from my work whom I "fell in love" with. I don't think I know what love is now, let alone back then. We only dated for a little over 6 months and the relationship ended pretty meh at best. She broke up with me and because it was my first serious relationship I was pretty devastated at the time.
Fast forward about 4 years and many failed tries at a friendship, mainly my fault and I will admit to this, with her. I don't know what makes me want to speak with her, whether it he boredom, loneliness or whatever. I always end up being the ******* that I am and that's that.
I've changed a lot since back then and five or so months ago I initiated a friendship with her again. Been going great so far, we've not had a single argument about anything stupid like always happened in the past. I got her a job at my current place of employment because she had trouble finding a second job so she could finally leave her current one. She's going to school for nursing, she's a very motivated person when it comes to her career and future. There is only one problem though. Her mother recently moved to Florida after a divorce with her step father so my friend was in a bind and had to move in with her bf.
They've only been dating 7 months or so and this guy is a major douche bag. Every week he's always done something that has her terriblely upset, he doesn't have a license or a car, she drives him to his minimum wage job everyday, he drinks all the time and has a 2? year old daughter(not that's there is anything wrong with that). A friend of mine at work even knows when something has her upset that her bf has done.
I would never tell her to do anything, she's an adult and can make her own decisions but I have voiced my opinion on the matter very strongly and she knows how I feel about this guy. I know she can do much much better but I think she is scared to leave him for fear of no where to go.
I know she is still attracted to me and still has feelings for me, as do I to her also. She considers me a very close friend now and someone she can talk about anything with. We hangout every so often just having a good time, I can always make her laugh and smile and we are just happy in general when we are together. Basically we have both changed a lot from our younger days, for the better.
Whenever I see her I always get a big loving hug. Yesterday I dropped by her old job with a coffee for her because I was in the area and I know how much she hates it there. I dropped by unannounced, she was very happy to see me as usual and I stayed for an hour or so just shooting the **** as usual, nothing out of the ordinary. I was too lazy to walk out the front so I asked if I could just go out the back entrance because my car was parked closer. She walked me back and gave a really big long hug as usual, I kissed her on the forehead and then bam; we started making out. I don't even remember who initiated it but it was god damn amazing. Lasted for a couple mins and then we parted ways.
I don't want to be that guy who ruins relationships(not that it seems to be anything great in the first place). She knows how I feel about her current bf and I told her she's more than welcome to stay with me if she needs a place to go. I don't even know what I want. I just know we both make each other happy and that's what counts right?
So I guess here is my dilemma? What the **** do I do?...
I know there are some things I missed but this will do for now. Thanks in advance for anyone that gives good advice.